Letting Loose

I have been very careful with my writing on this blog up until now. I was reading some other blogs and came to the realization that I need to write like I don't care who's reading rather than worrying about if my friend will be offended or my husband will say something rude about it. Because really when you get right down to it, NO ONE IS READING MY BLOG BUT ME!!

I need to treat this more like diary, well a diary of a approaching 40, bitter house wife and mother who is quite sure that if she told everyone what was running through her mind they would run for the hills and take my kids with them.

Just yesterday I was sitting next to my friend's pool while my kids swam thinking I only reason I'm sitting there sweating my balls off is because then my kids will have something to tell my husband as proof for why it's o.k. I get to sit at home on my ass while he wakes up and goes to work everyday. It's the same reason I clear off the damn counter top and have some form of dinner in the microwave every night. The rest of the day I sit on facebook and watch Bravo or Style channel. Being home sucks, it's boring and no one gives a shit what you do and those holier than thou mothers (i.e. bitches) who tell you otherwise are lying their asses off or have had a lobotomy to bring their IQ down to the third grade level. No one, and I mean NO ONE enjoys playing legos with their kids.

Case in point, I have a friend who had both her kids do part time kindergarten as opposed to full time so she could, "spend time with them before they are in school forever". She then spends her days pawning her kids off on everyone else and her family so she can work out and be alone. I mean, why pretend? Just stick your kids in full time, stop trying to save face as mother of the year. It's bullshit.

I'm not sure why I chose to have kids when we were having a leave it to beaver revival but I kinda wish I had them when my mom did in the 70's, when it was o.k. to send your kids outside all day and not know where they were so you could drink and smoke in the house in peace.