Is it the End?

Here we are at the end of 2009. All year I have spent working towards the next thing, if I can just get through my trip to Vegas; son's birthday; Thanksgiving; Christmas. And here I am at the end. I accomplished all those things. I have completed, organized, and put away. People are always telling you to live in the moment not in the future but I seem to be incapable. So here I am finished with 2009. But there's always more isn't there? I feel like working towards completion is the only thing that keeps me going. I'm like a shark if I stop moving I fear I might die. I hope that for this new year I might take some time and enjoy my life. I have a good one, two healthy sweet wonderful boys who are my world, a good husband, a nice house, economic security, the ability to explore any options I want to. Part of me loves the feeling of organization and completion but I feel like I need to stop trying so hard. I want 2010 to be the beginning of me feeling comfortable in my skin. I want to appreciate myself and my life. This might actually be harder than completing something....