Begging for Drugs

Well it appears to be official, my youngest seems to have the flu. He has had a fever from Saturday and last night it spiked. He had 200 mg of motrin in him and he was still burning up. I am supposed to leave for my trip on Thursday. I have now called the doctor's office to beg for Tamiflu. I know only the kids with asthma and other high risk symptoms should be getting it but I CANNOT get on a plane and fly away from child who has a 103+ fever. They made it clear it might not help or only shorten it by a few days but I'll take it! I'm hoping they give in. I will never enjoy myself if the kids are really sick. Sometimes it really sucks being a mother. You can't be selfish, you just can't. It's physically impossible. The sad part is if he really is sick I will not be bothered to cancel my trip. I will do it willingly because I will not have any kind of fun with him being sick.